Saturday, December 27, 2008

c'est la vie!

first of all,
MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS!!!
i had a blastttt....AWESOMENESS.
eve was great and the same amount of enthusiasm continued to flow all the way into xmas day..
managed to see almost everyone,
uber happiness!!XD
xmas greeted me at the stroke of midnight with well,
a slab of lubricant on ma hands..
no, i was getting into any bedroom action.
rather, with bizarre gifts,
comes bizarre ways of 'sharing'.
so yea, fun it was.
company was just over the top.
love.love.love.
as for today,
JE TE MANQUE
someone i truly, dearly care about left for uk today,
it just hit me a lil while ago,
tht he's gone-.-
yesterday, was a repetition of a scene 2 years ago,
same scene,
same people,
HIM n HER,
but viewed with a completely opposite perspective.
not even a single,tingly signal down my spine.
*smiles*
goodbye was the only thing on my mind.
HAIHS.
and guys, it's not that i don't appreciate you as much,
even if i nvr had little projects set aside for ya,
just that goodbyes were nvr possible or necessary with you.
forgive me, aite?=)
AVRIL,
c'est loin, non?
wonder what would ( or might) have changed by then eh?

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

3 in 1, hardly the best bargain

it's true when they say you meet 3 guys in one lifetime,
your first love,
the one you truly love (the most),
and the one you marry.
very rarely,
like a precious gem,
that you can find all these 3 guys,
in one person.
it's sad that i have to acknowledge the fact that i can never find all 3 in one..
and i truly envy those who can..i mean,
what are the odds, right?
marrying your first love ,
seems like a fairytale now.
yet the idea of being able to give yourself as a WHOLE to the person you ought to marry,
with your heart still intact, never shattered,
hopes well preserved,
reality unimportant,
dreams undeterred;
seems too good to be true.
my belief in love had been shaken,tested.
it's not a game that i excel it,
what's the smart thing to do?
what's the RIGHT thing to do?
i've been taught to abstain from things that burn,
should i?

Sunday, December 21, 2008

SOUR

if there's such a thing called lucky streak,
my life would have been the exact opposite for last week,
chaotic might have been an understatement even.
so much so that it can be made into a reality series,
probably even worth watching reruns of it.
afterall, u dont watch shows lk tht unless it involves
the person being drained with an avalanche of absolute shitty situations
and then her clawing her way outta it or drowning along with it.
i'm not gonna even play it down.
it WAS that bad.
on the other note,
nothing's more disgustingly annoying,
and painfully pathetic,
than absolute indulgence in self pity.
much to my horror, the past week was encouraging THAT do come upon me in FULL FORCE.
for an instant, i actually took pity in my horrendous fate.
and NOT feel guilty about it.
YUCK!
ran into a long last friend as well.
yep,
LOST would be the right word.
thanks in great part to me i guess.
he was just this one person i was dead convinced i'd nvr run into,
or at least the last person i'd expect to run into.
but,i'm glad i did.
made me realise how much time has changed things.
in a good,positive way.
hopefully, things will take a turn soon.
i'm quite worn out.
thus, sorry if i've been acting lk a cold hearted bitch.
my mood was sour.
yes, not the best excuse but the only REASON i can come up with.
=)

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

buhybyes xanga......hellusss blogspot

after DAYS...and i mean DAYSSS..
of not being able to post ONE single entry due to the uber bitchy 'attitude' xanga was giving me,
i've finally decided,
I AM MOVING.
for days, i've been deprived of letting my words( if not thoughts ) run free.
almost as if it was clogging my mind.
dang it.
so here i am...HELLOSSS=)
ps: i've had enough of u, xanga. go on, be a bitch